Fresh Starts

I wonder sometimes if I would have the same urge-to-purge if my husband had not chosen the military life. While we didn’t change bases that often the first few years, we did move between apartments, base housing and our first home.

Since that assignment, we have moved several times every 1-3 years…until this tour. We have been here 3 1/2 years now and the last few months I have wanted to do nothing more than clear out clutter. It makes me wonder if this desire to clear out every few years is a result of our military life or is simply the way I would be anyway. I procrastinate so much that I find myself with piles of paper, started projects and to-do lists for every room. At the same time, I like nothing better than seeing a piece of furniture with a completely clear surface, or another with coordinating bins and baskets to hold neatly categorized objects. As I have made my way through various rooms of our home over the last few months, I have begun to wonder if what I really seek is a clean slate. I love my God, my family, my work, my life. I do not want to change these things. I am also human, and full of mistakes daily. Maybe this cycle of sorting, purging, cleaning and organizing our stuff is just a way of trying to do the same thing with regret. Today I will recognize that all of that clutter in my head and heart is what has made me who I am. I embrace it. Then I pray that God will help me sort, purge, cleanse me and give me a fresh start for tomorrow. His mercies are new every morning.